MY REAL FIRST ENTRY

LISTENING TO: SPIN
BY: MONOCHROMATIC

I THINK THAT THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I’M REALLY WRITING IN MY BLOG ...
ALL MY OTHER ENTRIES WERE JUST UPDATES, OR THINGS THAT I THOUGHT I WANTED TO GET OUT OF MY TRIP ...
THAT I THOUGHT I DIDN’T HAVE ALREADY ...

WHEN IT COMES TO FINDING A PURPOSE IN LIFE OR ANYTHING FOR THAT MATTER ...
I’M STARTING TO THINK THAT GOD IS WONDERING WHY ...
WHY WERE SEARCHING ...
WHY WOULD HE WANT US TO WASTE OUR TIME SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING THAT HE HAS ALREADY SET IN FRONT OF US ...
BUT WE JUST DON’T REALLY WANT TO ACCEPT IT YET ...
SOMETHING THAT HE HAS ALREADY PLACED IN OUR HEARTS, AND HAS BEEN THERE FOR AWHILE...

FOR SOME REASON I HAVEN’T ACCEPTED WHAT HE’S PUT IN FRONT OF ME ...
THE MORE I KEEP THINKING ABOUT IT I HAD THE ANSWERS TO ALL MY QUESTIONS BEFORE I LEFT ORLANDO, BUT I JUST DIDN’T WANT TO HAVE TO RISK BEING IN SITUATIONS THAT MIGHT MAKE ME UNCOMFORTABLE ...
PUT ME IN A SITUATION THAT I MIGHT NOT KNOW HOW TO GET AROUND OR THROUGH ...
SOMETHING THAT MIGHT IN THE END MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON THAN I’VE EVER BEEN ...
A PERSON DOING WHAT THEY REALLY WANT IN LIFE ...
THEIR PASSION!

WE AS HUMANS JUST DON’T WANT TO ACCEPT OUR TRUE PASSION ...
WE THINK THAT THE USUAL PLAN DOWN THE OLD AND WARN OUT PATH IS THE RIGHT OR SAFE WAY ...
WE HAVE TO MAKE SENSE AND RATIONALIZE EVERYTHING WE DO ...
USING THESE "STEPS" TO THE NEXT THING ...

WHY ?

WHY WOULD WE FOLLOW A PATH THAT WAS SET FORTH BY SOMEONE ELSE
IN A DIFFERENT TIME AND IN A DIFFERENT PLACE ...
IF THIS GENERATION WANTS TO BE DIFFERENT ...
WHY NOT BE REVOLUTIONARY ...
WHY NOT DO WHAT WE REALLY WANT TO DO ...
WHY DO WE HAVE TO KEEP PLAYING WITH THE IDEA OF TRUE HAPPINESS, AND JUST ACCEPT IT ...
ACCEPT OUR AND MY TRUE PASSION ...
THE TRUE REASON WHY GOD HAS PUT US ON THIS EARTH ...
OUR PASSION IS WHAT MAKES US HAPPY, AND IS GOD'S TRUE PLAN FOR US ...
WHEN WE USE THIS PASSION GOD'S WORD REACHES, AND HIS KINGDOM WILL GROW MORE THAN OUR MINDS COULD EVER GRASP ...

SO I GUESS THE QUESTION ISN'T WHAT DOES GOD HAVE PLANNED FOR MY LIFE BUT ...

WHY AM I NOT ACCEPTING MY TRUE PASSION ?
WHY AM I NOT ALLOWING MYSELF TO DO WHAT GOD HAS GIVEN ME A PASSION FOR ?
WHY DO I HAVE TO FEEL COMFORTABLE ?

WHY ?

THIS IS JOSH IN CHICAGO
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NASCAR IS MORE THAN JUST LEFT TURNS

LISTENING TO: O
BY: DAMIEN RICE

MY DAD CAME INTO TOWN TODAY, AND IT WAS GOOD TO SEE A FAMILIAR FACE. I’VE REALIZED I THINK THAT THIS TRIP TO CHICAGO IS A TRIP OF FIRSTS. AND TO FIT INTO THAT MY DAD TOOK ME TO MY FIRST NASCAR RACE. YOU KNOW IT IS ACTUALLY MORE INTERESTING THAN PEOPLE GIVE IT CREDIT FOR. THERE ACTUALLY SOME KIND OF DRAMA AND EVERYTHING NEEDS TO BE SYNERGIZED PERFECTLY FOR A CAR TO GET INTO A BETTER POSITION AFTER THEY PIT. IT WAS A FUN AND INTERESTING EXPERIENCE.

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TAKE ME OUT TO THE BALL GAME

LISTENING TO: THIS SIDE
BY: NICKEL CREEK

THE AGENCY I WORK FOR HAS TICKETS TO EVERY CUBS HOME GAME, AND TODAY I WAS INVENTED TO GO WITH A FRIEND TO MY FIRST CUBS GAME.

WHICH IS AWESOME TO MOST PEOPLE ... NOT ME!

WHEN I WAS YOUNGER MY DAD TOOK ME TO A BRAVES GAME. I WAS ALL EXCITED TO SKIP SCHOOL, AND GO SEE CHIPPER JONES AND THE BRAVES PLAY. SO WE GOT THERE EARLY, AND SAW THEM AT BATTING PRACTICE. MY FAVORITE PLAYER AT THE TIME COMES UP TO BAT, CHIPPER JONES, AND SMASHES ONE A LITTLE FAR RIGHT. THE BALL HIT OF THE GROUND AND SHOT INTO THE CROWD HITTING ME IN THE RIGHT SIDE OF MY HEAD, AND KNOCKING ME OUT FOR A SECOND. I FELT A LITTLE WOOZY, AND THEN JUST STARTED GETTING SICK. I WAS RUSHED TO THE HOSPITAL AND HAD TO STAY OVERNIGHT. I HAD A CONCUSSION AND AN INDENT OF THE BALL BEHIND MY EAR FOR A FEW DAYS AFTER THAT.

SO GETTING THESE TICKET FROM MY BOSS MIGHT HAVE BEEN A NICE GESTURE, BUT I WAS FREAKING OUT THE WHOLE TIME. AFTER A FEW INNINGS I GOT COMFORTABLE, AND REALLY STARTED TO ENJOY THE GAME. IT DEFINITELY NOT SOMETHING IM GOING TO DO ON A REGULAR BASIS, BUT IT WAS FUN!

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IM A WORKING MAN

LISTENING TO: THIS IS THE LAST TIME
BY: KEANE

I FINALLY STARTED WORKING TODAY, AND IT WAS AWESOME. THE AGENCY IS FULL OF PEOPLE WHO ARE CREATIVE, FRIENDLY, YOUNG, AND DOWN TO EARTH.

MY MENTOR, CHRIS TULL, IS GOING TO BE A GREAT TEACHER. HE HAS WORKED WITHIN THE CREATIVE WORLD AND HAS DONE SO MUCH. I KNOW I'M GOING TO LEARN A LOT FROM HIM.

MY DUTIES TODAY WERE TO PUT TOGETHER AN ARTIST SHOWCASE WITH TYLER HILTON FOR THE AGENCY. HE WAS REALLY GOOD. I’VE NEVER HEARD OF HIM, BUT HE DID A GOOD JOB.

IT WAS AN INTERESTING AND FUN FIRST DAY!

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THE FIRST RAIN

LISTENING TO: POLITIK
BY: COLDPLAY

THE FIRST RAIN CAME TODAY AND I LOVE THE RAIN. IT HAS THIS WAY OF MAKING THINGS SLOW DOWN. IT SEEMED LIKE THE FAST CITY STOOD STILL FOR A LITTLE WHILE JUST CAUSE OF THE RAIN. IT HAS A WAY OF RELAXING YOUR NERVES, AND CALMING YOU DOWN. ONE DROP AT A TIME!

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MY PILGRIMAGE DOWNTOWN

LISTENING TO: CHICAGO
BY: SUFJAN STEVENS

TODAY I SPENT ABOUT 2 HOURS JUST WALKING AROUND DOWNTOWN TAKING IT ALL IN. I SAW THE NEW TRUMP TOWER. WHICH IS GOING TO BE THE NEW TALLEST BUILDING IN CHICAGO. WENT TO MILLENNIUM PARK, AND SAW “THE BEAN” AND SOME OTHER AMAZING ART. WENT TO SEE WHERE ILL BE WORKING SOON, AND JUST GOT MYSELF USED TO THE AREA. IT WAS A FUN LITTLE TRIP!

I DON’T START WORK UNTIL TUESDAY, AND I DON’T KNOW ANYONE. SO ALL I DO RIGHT NOW IS SPEND A LOT OF TIME ALONE, WATCH TV IN THE LOUNGE, AND READ OR I SHOULD SAY LISTEN TO SOMEONE READ ... AUDIOBOOKS ROCK! ALL THIS TIME I HAVE MAKES ME THINK OF THE PROMISE I MADE TO GOD TO USE THIS TIME NOT JUST TO HAVE FUN, BUT TO USE THIS TIME TO JUST FIND MYSELF AND HIS PURPOSE FOR THE NEXT STEP OF MY LIFE.

AND AS I WATCH STATUS ON MY COMPUTER IT MAKES ME THINK OF THE THINGS THAT I MISS BACK HOME ... I THINK THAT’S THE FIRST TIME I’VE EVER CALLED ORLANDO HOME. YOU DON’T KNOW HOW GOOD YOU HAVE SOMETHING UNTIL YOU HAVE TO LEAVE THAT SITUATION, AND ARE THROWN INTO ONE THAT’S NOT AT ALL LIKE THE ONE YOU HAD TO LEAVE.

I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD SAY THIS EITHER, BUT THE LONGER I’M HERE NOT DOING ANYTHING THE MORE I WANT TO JUST START WORKING AND DO WHAT I CAME HERE TO DO.

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OUTSIDE MY WINDOW

LISTENING TO: AGAETIS BYRJUN
BY: SIGUR ROS

YESTERDAY WAS PRETTY AMAZING. THE CLOSER I GOT TO THE CITY THE MORE EXCITED I GOT TO BE THERE. THE CITY IS MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN I THOUGHT, AND MY PLACE IS MORE IN DOWNTOWN THEN I EXPECTED.

THE VIEW FROM OUTSIDE MY WINDOW A LOOKS LIKE A PICTURE FROM A TRAVEL BOOK. THE SKYSCRAPERS LOOKING DOWN ON THE OLDER BUILDINGS LIKE THERE PROTECTING THEM FROM TIME. THE “L” SLICING THROUGH THEM LIKE A SNAKE MAKINGS ITS WAY FROM ONE SIDE OF THE CITY TO THE OTHER.

THE SOUNDS OF THE CITY AREN’T AS CRAZY AS I THOUGHT THEY WOULD BE. NO HONKING OR YELLING AT 3 IN THE MORNING. JUST THE SOUND OF THE “L” GOING BY. IT ACTUALLY KIND OF PUT ME TO SLEEP.

MY PLACE IS NICE. IT HAS A KIND OF MODERN FEEL TO IT. MY ROOM’S KIND OF SMALL, BUT IT’S ALL GOOD I DON’T NEED A LOT OF SPACE. ILL TAKE SOME PICTURES SOON, AND PUT THEM UP.

TODAY IM JUST GOING TO WALK AROUND, AND SEE WHAT OTHER SITES THE CITY HAS TO OFFER, AND POST MY ADVENTURE.

I FEEL LIKE THIS IS GOING TO BE AN AMAZING EXPERIENCE THE MORE I LOOK AROUND.

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